Before Ethan arrived, I was scared to death. I had no idea what to expect, so I expected the worst. Thankfully, life is far from being "the worst", but it has definitely been trying for me and the rest of us. A crying newborn, a tearful toddler, a cranky Mommy, a bored Khloe, and a stressed out Daddy all make up our new home. Sounds wonderful right?
I've told my family multiple times that "I just want my old life back". Of course, I am completely in love with my new son and love having him around, but having my life thrown up in the air like it has been is rough. Because of the terrible RSV season we have had this year as well as the horrendous smog, Ethan's pediatrician told me I shouldn't take him anywhere for the first month. Ugh! When I had Claire, we were taking walks and enjoying the warm, summer air just a mere days after her birth. This time around we were subjected to lock down and this is why I never want to have a child in the middle of winter again.
Since Ethan's one month birthday is approaching on Sunday, we are finally starting to get out and about and it feels great! The warmer weather, turning the page on our calendar to March, seeing that daylight savings is only two weeks away, and Easter is quickly approaching as well, have all added to my new found excitement. I feel like I can finally see the light and the end of this dreary, dark tunnel that comes with having a newborn. Today, I ventured out to the mall for a few hours and despite lugging Claire, Ethan, Khloe, and all of the junk that goes with them, it was a little slice of heaven. We walked around for a few hours, picked out a pretty balloon and treated ourselves to a yummy milkshake. I was loving being out of the house so much that I decided to feed Ethan in the Nordstrom bathroom so we could stay out longer and I even let Claire miss her afternoon nap. We had a blast.
It seems that we have finally entered a time where Ethan is on more of a schedule, winter is almost behind us, and our life is ALMOST back to normal. Slowly but surely, we are making the transition.
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Life is full of adjustments. Just don't ever expect things to go smoothly and life will be easier. The summer will be fun with Ethan on a schedule and the ability to put him in a pack so you'll have both hands free for Claire and Khloe. Enjoy it before Ethan starts walking. You're a great mom! Continue to find the positive.
man do I know how you feel! It was the same for us when Carter was born in January, and then since he got RSV at 10 days old, we were locked in for months- it really is hard! The terrible weather, cabin fever, newborn demands, toddler demands, lack of sleep- it all just puts you into complete survival mode. There is something about this time in the year plus having a newborn that is so isolating and lonely as a young mom, but It really is going to get better, just think how nice it is going to be when we can get lunch and throw some blankets out in the front yard and let the kids run around, or go to the playground. I am SO looking forward to it! PLUS just think of the freedom we will have when both Halle and Claire are in school this Fall! We can throw Ethan and Carter in the double stroller and go shopping twice a week!
We have all been there and I only can say that is does get better and better. Love the picture keep them coming.
I remember feeling that way. It was nearly impossible for me to leave the house by myself with twin newborns! I hated it, but it was so nice to have the warm weather right after they were born to be able to just go outside. Hang in there, just look forward to summer and how much fun Ethan is going to be once he is bigger! Let me know if you need anything too. We'd love to schedule a play date one morning with Claire so you can maybe get out with one kiddo!
I remember......wait, I still wish for my old life and we just have one (soon to be two...pretty scared)!!! Good luck and things will get warm and sunny soon.
Going from 1-2 kids was a much harder transition for me than going from 2-3. (everyone is different though-)
From a very wise mother of 9 children...
"When I had only one child, she was so heavy. Now I can see that children are as light as air. They float past you, nudging against you like balloons as they ascend.
Dear mother, don’t worry about enjoying your life. Your life is hard; your life will be hard. That doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong—it means you’re doing it right."
Read more: http://www.ncregister.com/blog/simcha-fisher/to-the-mother-with-only-one-child#ixzz2MqcODwTi
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